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Music.. Never thought of anything other than Rock in last couple of years. Its been only Rock. I’ve become an ardent fan without my own knowledge. Listening to stuff like Led Zep all the time. My iPod 160 GB classic (Silver), which I’m really proud of has close to 25 gig of bootleg Rock music. Ohh not all.. I bought some of em.. I never listen to music on my phone(iPhone 2g) though. I rarely look at my iPod app in my phone. Recently my roomie a big fan of iPhone took my phone and synced it to his iTunes album with a good mix of Hindi songs and some good old melodies like Roxxette. I’d no knowledge of this secret operation. And then suddenly today when my iPod’s battery truned red after playing for more than 30 hours, I had to use my phone for feeding my ears. And it was an eye opener. While I cannot give up Rock, its really been a long time since I last listened to Briyan Adams, one of my long time favs in college days. Also found songs from t.A.T.u., Duran Duran, Madonna, Mandy Moore and Belind Carlisle. I couldn’t believe my eyes the way they were organised with proper Album art and the way you can scroll/flip/touch them using coverflow really made me smile. Some of it sound a bit gay.. 
I mean when did you last listen to some tunes from the movie Kasoor. Haven’t watched the movie myself, but I would say the songs were beautiful. I found one today. [GRIN] Also found sound tracks from some of my favourite movies like the Rocky series and Top Gun. Suddenly a feeling of happines has come over me in the midst of all these depressing news/stories around, reminding of the good old college days. I miss those days.
Talks about the recession have spread all over the world. The media is going frenzy every single day over the same issue. Everyday I read news about another country going into recession. The US and the UK seem to be the worst hit. And of course as always the effects are being felt here in India too. People who’re employed also seem to be cutting down on spending, while the govts in the developed countries are encouraging people to spend more amid job cuts. In fact, recently when I was going to buy a new MacBook, I called up one my best friends who’d returned from the US to inquire about the price of the notebook. However, I was astonished by his reaction to the fact that I was buying a new MacBook when there are people who don’t have enough to eat. He was just back from California which probably has been one of the worst hit by the recession with photos of closed down shops printed on every news paper. India probably is the only country where the effect of the recession has not been so severe. Yes I know about these IT companies firing employees showing absurd reasons. Some other industries too are busy shedding some “Fat”. In fact, I being employed in this so called Indian Information Technology industry, can feel the wave of nervousness around the office corridors, while the companies are still making tons of profit and also declaring them quite proudly in their quarterly reports. Sometimes I just wonder about things happening around me and force myself to the conclusion that probably my brain is not yet properly equipped to understand all the dynamics of this complex world. May be I don’t want to. I still have fond memories of the Birmingham beer festival last year, when I was sipping ale lazily. In fact, as I write this blog I’m wearing the CAMRA t shirt I bought, perched lazily on my cozy office chair on a Friday afternoon. I guess its doing the job of providing me with inspiration, to follow my dream and open a bar of my own, where I can serve beer to people over rock music and may be, crack a joke or two..
It was a big day of my life.. While friends at home were getting ready for a heavy Sunday lunch, I’d a very big decision to take; getting a haircut. Trust me, its not an easy decision for a guy who’s hair more than 12 inch long. People had started asking me if I didn’t have the money to get a haircut. Some of them actually thought it had someting to do with the current recession. But to be honest, even I dont know why I’d 1 ft. long hair. Anyway in the morning when I woke up, I’d taken that big decision. I googled a bit for a salon near by. My hands felt heavy as I picked up the phone to call “Eye Catchers”. Taxied 1.5 KMs to reach that place exactly at 11.30AM, as I’d an appoinment with the hairdresser. As far as I can remember I’d never fixed an appointment with Hairdresser before this. I’ve surely done it with doctors or some insurance agents.. But with hairdresser, this was the first time. He was speaking a lot of gibberish about fashion, which I’d no idea about, while he ran that machine over my head. After half an hour I’d reduced 1 Kilo in weight and had added Rs. 496 to my credit card bill.. And the same people who thought I was hit by the recession, are now looking twice at me before they can recgonize..
Got up at 6.05 AM. Saw the sun and felt the cool breeze of the morning. Had my breakfast. All this after a grueling period of more than 1 year. I feel like a human again!
I just woke up. Had a shower. Didn’t have lunch. Last day of night shift today. Slept like a baby in the daytime, inspite of dreams about ghosts and other things which don’t scare me.
Its nearing mid of Feb. Haven’t started traveling yet, except for a trip to home town last month. Mama says “stop traveling too much”. She is scared that I might die in a road accident someday. She has no idea how many people die on their way to office.
Too busy with work, leaving me with little time for the ‘I’ in me. Trying to read some books. Only good ones. Life is too short to waste on bad things which includes dumb girls. Bad books makes you feel like a shithead and dumb girls are always a nightmare. people in office want me to join them on a team outing. Some sort stupid weekend trip. I see their faces 5 days a week. They are not ready to spare me 1 day of happiness. I say “Good job guys”.
I feel like living isolated sometimes. Cutoff from the hustle of the working world; only connected to it virtually. Lost in the oblivion, listening to Pink Floyd. Expecting some sort of Domino effect afterwards.
I’m a software professiona, but not much into technology these days. I used to bang my head over trivial things like “How Linux is better” and shit like that. I’m over it now. Just trying ro use my lappy as given to me. Feeling the web around me. Have no intention to write any ground breaking algorithm. Just a feeling of detachment.
Life feels beautiful sometimes. So does death. But hopeful that it would be long before I face the second one. Hahahaaa…. Life looks beautiful except for petty things like office, rising blood pressure, HDL, LDL, traffic and shit like that. I see the setting sun in the horizon; with a bunch of Grey marooned clouds. Birds flying away forming a V in the distant sky. Sometimes a question pops up inside the circuits of my little brain. How far is illusion from reality? Should put this question to a NASA scientist. Is green grass laced with droplets from fog an illusion and tar on the roads a reality? How about Einstein this time?
Definition : Everything that has been accomplished, no matter by whom, irrespective of nationality, skin color or religion bias, is actually a result of the person in question being on high; and the rest of the world is good for nothing.
The ‘High’ that I’m talking about here is not limited to but includes smoking marijuana, getting drunk and stuff like that. High as the word suggests is a higher state of being. People have experienced this high factor by falling in love with a boy, girl or may both; whatever. Music can get you high. City girls these days are on diet high. Painting gives some people high. And of course Yoga, meditation, computer game medical conditions like Insomnia are all actually a way of achieving high. I remember one my previous tech leads, who is currently leading version 3.0 of his life, mentioning somewhere about getting high on near death experience. Not too sure about that. I’ve no idea how this theory came into my mind while sitting on the commode.
Believe me, even the “Theory of relativity” and all the “Newtonian Theories” are based on this “High Theory”. Yeah. These people used to get high on PHYSICS. Quite possibly. The US attacked Iraq because it was on a war high. Saddam got caught because he couldn’t achieve high anymore. Bin Laden is still on high. Steve Buckner didn’t take wrong decisions deliberately. He did it because he is high on anti-Indian sentiments. The news channels aren’t producing bullshit because they are news channels. They are doing it because they are on news high. So everything, good shit, bad shit, best of the shitpile are all on high. I hope you got an idea. Jay HIGH.
